Wednesday, September 16, 2009

My Un-wanted Life

I grow up without knowing whose my real father is nor any relatives from my mother's side.
My mother used to work in a club somewhere in Olongapo. Everyone knows that Olongapo before has been a base for US Army nor US navy. And they said that that's the reason why there are lot's of night club during those days in that place.

That was where my mother meet my real father an American, he managed to give her shelter, Bought a house for her but he left us with enough money when my mother give birth to me. My mother don't have other choice but to go back to the club and work there again. She never saw my father anymore, Some say's that he went back to US already and joined his real family.

Then, She meet my first step dad. She was then so lucky that he loves her so much. He tried to took care of us and even treated me as his real daughter. We lived a life that every one can ever imagine with, He was able to give me everything, you can even see my room full of new toys not just from here but from other country that we used to visit with. I can't say a thing on the love he showed to me. But life was so cruel, He passed away when i was 10 years old though he left a lot of money under my name in bank account. But, since it was my mother who serve as my guardian, she was able to withdraw the money and open another bank account under her name.

I know all of this things through her diary, everything was written there. Though the saddest part was she managed to take off the name of my real father.

With the help of the money left by my step dad, We were able to go on with our life, but since my mother don't have job then we lost those money by years.

She managed to work as a real estate agent, go somewhere else for the client sake. Then one day she went home with another man. She said that he will going to live with us on that very same day. Of course, who am i to refused as i am just nothing but a 12 years old girl.

I thought everything will be back to normal, like what happened with my first step dad, but i was totally wrong. His a total far different from my dad. i can't even feel the love from him and his voice was so arrogant that i can't even feel the softness from it.

My mother was not always with us. I always left alone with my 2nd step dad though i always keep my space away from him but life was so cruel.

It was right after graduation from primary school when he ruined my entire life.

I know from that very first moment that there's something different from him, the way he look at me and the way he smile. I feel something dangerous from him.